So I've been working very hard to improve my voice (although, I'm still very critical of myself, which sucks) and I think it's time that I just stop caring. Of course, only to a certain extent.
Recording this song was very difficult. I did it on my phone and when I bluetoothed the file to my computer it didn't come out as an mp3 file, so I had to go convert it online. This is a lot more trouble than I have ever done for a song, but I'm glad I did. It turned out much clearer and with less background noises than in my recordings taken on the computer.
So in this song there are a lot of instrumental parts, but I didn't record with the music in the background, so there are going to be parts that sound so awkward. I HATE THOSE PARTS!!! Please listen though. Lol this is the most I've ever typed for a song, lol. Okay, so as always ENJOY!!!!!~
Because my mom had gotten mad at me (won't tell you what for), but whenever she does, I always write a letter to her, because it's much easier for me to put down my thoughts like that rather than speak them out loud.
*disclaimer* Please note, this may confuse you, amuse you, or make you mad. Viewer discretion is advised.
Dear Mommy Stalin,
In today's edition of "Lovely Whines: Let's Criticize Her" we will reach topics that have been reached before. WAIT! And that's not all, you also get bonus content with Lovely's opinions that don't actually matter, but the editors thought we should add it anyway.
Stay tuned after the break!
*commercial break*
Commercial 1: You're probably wondering why you were called Mommy Stalin. Well, Stalin was a fascist dictator, which is basically what you were embodying in your family dinner movie "Anxiety is Fake" starring you as the autocratic matriarch in charge of Lovely starring as misunderstood/socially unacceptable loser. :D That was a great movie! I especially love the part where you take the loser's computer away.
Commercial 2: Are you still here??? Ok! Good! idk about you, but at the rate tuition at 4 year colleges is going, you'll be lucky if your daughter makes it in. Of course, in a fascist world, that stuff doesn't matter. What is the source of your daughter's education? Surely not a scroll she had to write on in calligraphy by getting information from the encyclo-what-ia? LOL, it's not that, it's the computer. Something so little, yet so powerful. Perhaps more powerful than fascism, but you'll have to get some other opinions from the Dictator Damsels Club (a club just for moms like you! Sign up free @ *insert fake website here*) Now, I, the narrator, not your daughter, believes computers are important for success. Use them correctly and they are your friend. I bet Stalin wouldn't use a computer lol. Got synergy?
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AND WE'RE BACK WITH THIS EDITION OF "Lovely Whines: Let's Criticize Her" brought to you in part by social anxiety disorder, because hiding in the corner matters.
Today's first topic: FASCISM
Isn't this swell? :) We live in a country where we can have our own thoughts, opinions, and actions. Unfortunately, due to a recent outbreak of Stalinitis, parens everywhere are dictating their children. Even worse, NO VACCINE! That must suck for kids with opinions! Yeah, no kidding! This Stalinitis outbreak is so bad I forgot what an opinion was! Does that mean I like bananas...or not? Lol, as if that matters! This is Dictatorland now! Wow, swell! You know who else must suffer from this horrible disease? Kids with social anxiety. Now that Stalinitis has taken over, they MUST face their fears, even get made fun of for having this disorder. Lol, and that's NOT offensive *reference to last week's episode where Jaylen whines about what is and isn't offensive*. It's truly sad, but we'll reach that topic later. For now, sit on your couch like the potato you are and wait for the show to come back on.
Before we bring you these message we'd like to quote Mommy Stalin. It's not one of her best quotes, but it'll do: "You didn't even enjoy your meal, stop lying to yourself." Quite sad, but definitely what she said. Lovely would like to whine in a more melancholy way now. Here is her statement in response to the statement above: "Yes, I did enjoy my meal. You know why? Because God gave it to me and I am very privileged to have that meal. There are people who can't even get a meal and you're telling me I DIDN'T enjoy it? =/ That doesn't even make sense. Of course I enjoyed it!"
Now on to the next message!
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Hi kids! I'm Aesthetic Man and I say be yourself.
Remember aesthetic is everything!~ <3
Alright and we're back. These last two messages were brought to you by aesthetic, because if no one else can see it's ok to be yourself, then you're going to have to be the one to do that.
Today's second, but minimally explained topic: Social Anxiety Disorder.
Lovely whine's about her symptom's, let's criticize them
Lovely: I get really overwhelmed.
Criticism: Excuse to get out of something
Lovely: Sometimes my chest tightens.
Criticism: That's just nervousness, freak.
Lovely: I feel like crying when forced into social situations.
Criticism: LOL, stupid attention seeker, get a life!
Lovely: I'm very hesitant when talking/asking questions.
Criticism: No you want people to do things for you.
Lovely: No one understands me.
Criticism: Yeah, because you're weird
Lovely: Insecure when talking/out in public. It's as if everyone's watching.
Criticism: But no one likes/cares about you so it doesn't even matter.
Well, that was enjoyable. It's fun not to ask questions about how someone truly feels. Instead let's break people down until they can't take it anymore. In which case you can call 1-888-ANX-IETY or just be yourself and embrace it like no one else will.
And our last topic comes right after this brief message.
Commercial 1:
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And our last topic: Aesthetic
Lovely doesn't vocalize it, but she has become very aesthetic this past year. Basically, she sees the beauty in everything, so anything you tell her really can't hurt her. All she wants to be is a happy girl in an aesthetic world. it's great, because she's finally come to value and stand by her opinions and actions. That is truly great, because so many people can't do that.
She's very young, but
Has realized that
Life is too short
To live without happiness
So if you want to
Get mad/sad at her
Fine
But remember
There is aesthetic
Waiting for you
Lovely whined about aesthetic, let's criticize her for it. :D
Bonus Material:
I don't feel like I should state any more of my opinions in real life nor should I not do what you say (because fascism).
I guess it's bad to be myself (because social anxiety).
"Gentlemen Prefer Blondes" is a 1953 comedy musical (with some romance as well) based on the 1949 musical of the same name, which was based on the 1925 novel by Anita Loos. There is also a 1928 silent film adaptation of the novel as well (hopefully I can watch that one, too).
Basically, the movie is about Lorelei Lee, the dumb blonde looking for someone rich, and Dorothy Shaw, the witty brunette looking for love. The two are showgirls and when Gus Edmund, Lorelei's fiance, sends them out on a cruise to France, the story begins from there.
Ok, so that was not a very good description, but it truly is the basic plot, I would not like to ruin the rest for you. I say watch it, because once they get on the cruise it gets really exciting from there. I was only watching it for Marilyn Monroe, but it turned out to be a really funny and entertaining movie.
Cast: Marilyn Monroe as Lorelei Lee (Gosh, she plays the dumb blonde role very well.) Jane Russell as Dorothy Shaw (She's a really good actress, too. XD She was very funny.) Charles Courbon as Sir Francis "Piggy" Beekman (He gave me the creeps) Elliot Reed as Ernie Malone (Loved him, then hated him, and then loved him again) Tommy Noonan as Gus Edmund (He was so adorable in a nerdy, shy way) George Winslow as Henry Spofford III (he's such a minimal character, but I wanted to add him in here, because he is the cutest part of the movie and his scenes are very funny)
Alright, done with the cast. This movie is really about best friends and how opposites attract and that's what I really liked about it. Costumes were great I mean Marilyn looked 10/10 in all of them.
Acting was spot on, music was great, and plot and execution of plot were great.
There's also a tiny scene spoken in French, but you'll understand what's being said in context to what's going on in the film.
I'm giving this movie 10/10. It's not even because I'm biased towards Marilyn Monroe, because I saw a movie with her before this one and it was so bad I couldn't believe it =/
So yes, this movie is excellent and I recommend you watch it. Here is the trailer of the movie. I hope you guys watch.
Rather they are quite random and have no significance, unless you are obsessed with me, which I would find hard to believe as I really have no substance. Well, I took these from this website and I will restate them right here for you guys. This post will probably be super long and I was thinking of making audio, but I'm way to awkward for that. I mean if you've ever heard my covers you will hear how awkward I sound when I'm introducing the song, so that's a no no. Please enjoy this long, nonsensical post and perhaps get a few laughs out of it (I haven't read the questions yet, so I have no idea what's going to come as I post this).
Q1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
A1: Open, because I turn on the light in there so I can find my way around my super dark room. It's like pitch black if the closet light isn't on, so it's sort of necessary that my closet is open.
Q2: Do you take shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels?
A2: YES! YES! YES! I mean what good is it to just leave it there? They probably switch them out right?! Of course, I'm taking that. It's sometimes really good brands, too, like don't mind if I do!
Q3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
A3: Well, I'm guessing that's the thing that covers the mattress, right? I actually don't call it that. My whole life, it's been called a sábana, so that's what I've always associated that with. My bed sheets are tucked out.
Q4: Have you stolen a street sign before?
A4: What the--? What kind of question is this? No, why would I do that?! Who does that?
Q5: Do you like to use post-it notes?
A5: Only when annotating for books, personally, I'd much rather organize my notes into a journal. It's just easier that way for me. Plus, I have as much space as I need to gather my thoughts, whereas a post-it note is pretty small (unless you get the big kind, which I don't).
Q6: Do you cut out coupons but never use them?
A6: No, I cut them out and use them. I love deals. They stay on the coupon sheet unless I'm planning on using them.
Q7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?
A7: Ugh, bee attacks sound really painful and I've never been stung by a bee, so you can imagine how I'll feel being stung for the first time by a bunch of them. The bear attack idk if I could outrun that thing and trick it, but I'm willing to take the chance that I can. Plus, if I was out in the woods, I might have some protection right? Weapons? Idk. Big bear sounds better.
Q8: Do you have freckles?
A8: No.
Q9: Do you always smile for pictures?
A9: When someone's taking them yes. When I'm taking them for myself, no. I mostly always smile, but sometimes I like to see my face with different expressions. It's just artistic. =/
Q10: What is your biggest pet peeve?
A10: When people copy me in class. I'd get it if you asked to copy, but just looking over my shoulder and copying me is so totally annoying! Even worse, is when people just take my paper when they see I finish writing something down.
Q11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
A11: Sometimes, but I reach like twenty and stop because I find something else amusing.
Q12: Have you peed in the woods?
A12: I've never been camping, so no. I have pissed my pants in the car before, does that count?
Q13: Have you ever pooped in the woods?
A12: Again, never been camping, so no. I've never pooped myself out of the bathroom after being potty trained, which is good, lol.
Q14: Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?
A14: I don't like dancing in general, so if there is no music playing, I really wouldn't have a need to dance at all. I only dance when I'm by myself in my room, listening to rock music. All you have to do to dance to rock music is jump around and headbang. I can dance to other music, I just prefer rock. Lol, that wasn't even the question...been overanalyzing everything since 2010.
Q15: Do you chew your pens and pencils?
A15: Eww, no. I do chew straws sometimes, but that's from anxiety (which I'm guessing is the same for the pens/pencils scenario, but no, I find that gross, imagine lending someone a chewed pencil/pen).
Q16: How many people have you slept with this week?
A16: Zero plus I would never. I'm still a teen and I find that gross =/
Q17: What size is your bed?
A17: It's two twin beds stuck together.
Q18: What is your song of the week?
A18: "Booty Swing" by Parov Stelar.
Q19: Is it OK for guys to wear pink?
A19: If they're confident about it, then totally yeah. Jimmy Urine has been rocking pink since the beginning of Mindless Self Indulgence, and I find him extremely hot for it.
Q20: Do you still watch cartoons?
A20: Yes, I love cartoons.
Q21: What is your least favorite movie?
A21: Hmm, let's see if I can remember...oh yeah, "16 Candles." Hate that movie, hate the characters (except the asian guy, forgot his name), and I hate the main actress. =/ That movie is so ew.
Q22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
A22: In my backyard. That's so classic.
Q23: What do you drink with dinner?
A23: Orange juice or soda, depends on what I'm having.
Q24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
A24: Ranch or buffalo sauce, both are equally good. Sometimes I like to mix the two sauces and dip like that.
Q25: What is your favorite food?
A25: Burgers (pretty much any kind, but if there's a burger with mushrooms in it, I would prefer that over most).
Q26: What movies could you watch over and over again and still love?
A26:
"Metropolis (1927)"
"Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close"
"South Park: Bigger, Longer, and Uncut"
"Smart House" (lol, one of those D****y channel movies that I loved a bunch)
"27 Dresses"
"The Rocky Horror Picture Show"
"The Omen"
"Carrie"
"Zombieland"
Probably a bunch more romantic comedies that I can't remember as well.
Q27: Last person you kissed/kissed you?
A27: I have never been kissed before.
Q28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
A28: No.
Q29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
A29: No, I would never do that, I have morals. I feel like if the whole world has seen my body, who cares what else I keep secret. The body is sacred and should only be for you and whoever else you feel comfortable sharing it with. Although, I wouldn't mind posing in swimsuits or as a pinup. That would be fine with me, just so long as I am comfortable, that is my main priority. I wouldn't mind something like this:
Q30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
A30: Last night (7.24.15), to my mom.
Q31: Can you change the oil on a car?
A31: No
Q32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
A32: No. I don't drive.
Q33: What's your favorite kind of sandwich?
A33: =/ Does a burger count? lol, I like Italian subs.
Q34: Ever ran out of gas?
A34: Again, don't drive. I've never been in a car that has run out of gas, though.
Q35: Best thing to eat for breakfast?
A35: Eggs and bacon
Q36: What is your usual bedtime?
A36: 12:00 a.m. - 2:00 a.m. and during the school year 11:00 p.m.
Q37: Are you lazy?
A37: Not really.
Q38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
A38:
2003: Tinkerbell
2004: I forgot
2005: I forgot
2006: Vampire
2007: Witch
2008: Again, a witch
2009: I forgot, zombie???
2010: Pocahontas
2011: I forgot
2012: Zombie clown??? (lol, I just painted my face I think)
2013: Stan Marsh
2014: Harley Quinn
2015: Hasn't come up, but am planning on something cool (pop art girl maybe?)
Q39: What is your Chinese astrological sign?
A39: Dragon
Q40: How many languages can you speak?
A40: 2, English and Spanish. I can't really speak Spanish, but I can read, write, and understand it. Speaking it is my problem.
Q41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
A41: No
Q42: Which are better: legos or lincoln logs?
A42: Legos
Q43: Are you stubborn?
A43: Yeah, it's hard to convince me things otherwise you have a really good argument, and I mean really good. If you give me general comments or attacking statements, I'm not going to listen to you.
Q44: Who is better: Leno or Letterman?
A44: I don't watch late time shows, so this question really wouldn't pertain to me.
Q45: Ever watch soap operas?
A45: I used to watch Spanish soaps when I was little. I sometimes watched Korean soaps when I was in middle school, but now not so much. I would like to go back to Korean soaps though, they're really cool and they're a much better change to the usual Spanish soaps I see my mom and grandmother watching.
Q46: Are you afraid of heights?
A46: Yes a lot. I'll go on rollercoasters though, but I try not to look down or think about how high I am.
Q47: Do you sing in the car?
A47: Yes.
Q48: Do you sing in the shower?
A48: Yes.
Q49: Do you dance in the car?
A49: No.
Q50: Ever used a gun?
A50: No.
Q51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
A51: When I was a baby, it's really cute.
Q52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?
A52: Nope, I love them.
Q53: Is Christmas stressful?
A53: Right now, it's not. Idk what will happen when I'm older and am expected to give out gifts, but for now it's smooth sailing. Remember though, it's the most wonderful time of the year.
Q54: Ever eat a pierogi?
A54: Wtf is that? *looks it up* So it's like a potsticker? I've eaten potstickers, so does that mean I've eaten a pierogi???
Q55: Favorite type of fruit pie?
A55: Pumpkin
Q56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
A56:
Chef (I watched a lot of Food Network)
Actor (lol, idk, why, I like movies a lot that could be it)
Ballerina (I took ballet)
Gymnast (I took gymnastics)
Doctor (I feel like everyone wants to be a doctor at least once when they're a kid)
Q57: Do you believe in ghosts?
A57: I'd have to see it to believe it. I've never seen one so no, I don't believe in ghosts.
Q58: Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
A58: Yeah. Multiple times.
Q59: Do you take a vitamin daily?
A59: What's a vitamin? No.
Q60: Do you wear slippers?
A60: Yes. Hello Kitty slippers to be exact.
Q61: Do you wear a bath robe?
A61: No.
Q62: What do you wear to bed?
A62: Whatever I wore in the morning.
Q63: What was your first concert?
A63: I've never been to a concert.
Q64: Walmart, Target, or Kmart?
A64: Target
Q65: Nike or Adidas?
A65: Adidas
Q66: Cheetos or Fritos?
A66: Fritos
Q67: Peanuts or sunflower seeds?
A67: Neither
Q68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
A68: No. =/
Q69: Ever take dance lessons?
A69: Yes, ballet and hip-
Q70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
A70: Music, art, or writing...or a normal, but totally stable job (like being a doctor/lawyer/businessman/something like that?) or maybe an athlete??? I really don't care about occupations, so long as it's not something like working at a fast food place, lol.
Q71: Can you curl your tongue?
A71: Yes. =)
Q72: Ever won a spelling bee?
A72: Yeah, like three times.
Q73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
A73: Actually no. Well, sometimes when I watch movies/read books with really happy endings, I cry.
Q74: Own any record albums?
A74: No sadly.
Q75: Own a record player?
A75: No sadly.
Q76: Do you regularly burn incense?
A76: No.
Q77: Ever been in love?
A77: I've had lots of crushes that I thought was "love," but the real thing, no.
Q78: Who would you like to see in concert?
A78: Mindless Self Indulgence
Q79: What was the last concert you ever saw?
A79: Never. =(
Q80: Hot tea or cold tea?
A80: Raspberry ice tea, sweetened kind you know the Lipton one.
Q81: Tea or coffee?
A81: Coffee!!!!!!
Q82: Sugar cookies or snickerdoodles?
A82: Neither
Q83: Can you swim well?
A83: Yeah =D I love swimming.
Q84: Can you hold your breath without holding your noise?
A84: Yes. For a very long time too.
Q85: Are you patient?
A85: Yes, unless I get extremely bored in which case get me the hell out of wherever I am!
Q86: DJ or band at a wedding?
A86: lol, if I had a band I would play at my own wedding and if my husband was in that band it'd be like our first jam session after being married. Cute, right? If not, well, then DJ but I'd just make a playlist in my computer and use that at the place. =/ I'm not big on DJ's playing "the latest hits."
Q87: Ever won a contest?
A87: Yeah a lot of times, but they're tiny things. It doesn't amount to winning a contest, like against other talented people. =/
Q88: Have you ever had plastic surgery?
A88: No and I am never planning on having it unless it's something that could save my life.
Q89: Which are better: black or green olives?
A89: Ew, olives are gross.
Q90: Can you knit or crochet?
A90: I can knit, with my fingers. I've made scarves with my fingers before it's cool.
Q91: Best room for a fireplace?
A91: Living room, duh.
Q92: Do you want to get married?
A92: Yes and no. I don't actually want to be marked as married on paper. Ew, the whole having to get the city's approval (why, idk), whole having a responsibility, whole "what if I get divorced" thing, no. Don't want to deal with that. But yeah, getting a wedding dress and having a nice "we're staying together forever" kind of thing sounds awesome. =D
Q93: If married, how long have you been married?
A93: Yeah, not married lol.
Q94: Who was your high school crush?
A94: This little Muslim kid, who was shorter than me, had glasses, had freckles (oh so cute!), brown hair, white skin (so I did not think he was Muslim until I found out XD), and I was so crazy over him. I realized I am crazy... =/ Love is not for me.
Q95: Do you cry and throw a fit when you don't get your way?
A95: Actually, sometimes, yeah. =/ It's just very subtle, but you can tell it's got a whiny feel to it.
Q96: Do you have kids?
A96: NO! =D
Q97: Do you want kids?
A96: Nope.
Q98: What is your favorite color?
A98: Black.
Q99: Do you miss anyone right now?
A99: Yeah, my friends from middle school and some others </3
I can't wait to see how much I've changed (or haven't). This is supposed to be a 30 day challenge, but I'm not going to do that. It'll be exactly 30 things about me. So please read through, or read what interests you. I'll never know. :P
1. Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is: Yes, I'm single. Idk how single life is, because I've never been in a relationship to begin with. I can only imagine how it is to be in a relationship and from what I've seen, horrible. It seems like a lot of stress and a lot of responsibilities. I feel like I want to be single forever. One, because no one likes me and two, because I don't want to be restricted. If someone is going to love me, they're going to just have to love me for me and not tell me to change. Likewise, I wouldn't tell them to change.
2. Where you'd like to be in 10 years: When I'm 24 I'd love to be touring with my band (my nonexistent band *cries in corner*) and doing other band stuff. I have no idea what, but just being on stage, doing interviews, and recording in the studio sounds like fun. If I'm not a singer by then, then I'll enjoy my research as a psychologist. It's one or the other. They both make me equally happy. Money wise, of course, stable. That would be great. I don't want to worry about money when I'm older, not at all. Relationship wise, as I said above, I don't care. Friends, I don't care much about either and sure it seems sad, but it really isn't, so yeah.
3. Your views on drugs and alcohol: Okay, so first things first alcohol is a drug. Tbh, I know that's not what this is asking but it annoys me that people don't consider alcohol a drug, it in fact is. It's just a legal drug and people have totally different terms for this stuff. It's not called getting stoned or high, it's called getting drunk and acquiring hangovers. Okay, now that that's done with...I would never do them. I don't even like taking prescription or over-the-counter meds (except cough syrup, which is sad on my part. I mean who fucking told them to make it taste like strawberry and grape and cherry. Nobody!!! Okay, so maybe they made it taste like that for kids, but exactly, KIDS. What if kids get addicted to it!!! There was a time when I was younger that I always wanted to drink cough syrup at night, but of course I didn't, because well I wasn't sick, but I tried to get sick. That's pretty sucky if you ask me). But yeah, seriously it's not good for you. I really don't care how educated you are about it, it's not good for you. BUT I will say this, if you are educated on this stuff, then good for you, because a lot of people just take drugs because it's drugs. At least you know what's going to happen to your body and your brain and all of that. If you didn't, I'd consider you stupid. Alcohol to me is extremely stupid, because I mean gosh it tastes gross. I dipped my finger in beer when I was a child and that shit tasted disgusting. If I had to choose to do either drugs or alcohol, I would choose drugs. It seems much safer, but like I said before, ALCOHOL IS A DRUG. Really, just don't do them at all. Please.
4. Your views on religion: This is going to be sweet and short. If you don't believe in anything, please don't push your non-belief on those who do believe. Those who do believe, please don't push your belief to the nonbelievers. Believe in whatever you want as long as you are passionate about it, whether that's nothing or one thing or various things, just stay true to it.
5. A time you thought about ending your own life: Probably never. I mean I've always wondered if people would care if I killed myself, but I would never do it. Life's too short to take it away.
6. Write 30 Interesting Facts About Yourself: Wow, just wow. Okay, proceed to read these interesting facts right here.
I like observing people and diagnosing them in my mind.
I have internet friends (I guess).
I get anxiety when I hear dial tone.
The last movie I watched was "Rashomon" (sorry no review guys)
I secretly wish I had no friends sometimes.
I'm learning how to code, because well, it's awesome.
I want to go to the east coast for a month and see how I would adapt.
I've never seen real snow.
My favorite snack these days is Red Vines.
I know basically every single word to every single Mindless Self Indulgence song.
@sosadtoday is my favorite Twitter account
If I ever did fall in love with someone, really fall in love, one of my goals would be to have sex in space.
I love Marilyn Monroe.
I'm currently in love with the band the Doors.
I don't like people who aren't open to different types of music.
Guys who are passionate, about anything really, are super attractive to me.
I have an Adam's apple fetish.
The first place I want to travel to is Austria.
I've never seen "Breakfast at Tiffany's" but I'm already in love with it.
Impressionable people/things annoy me.
Pseudo-intellectual people/things annoy me.
I find Scarlett Johansson unattractive.
I find Ansel Elgort unattractive
I can laugh at anything.
I think school is awesome.
I think guys who can teach me things that I don't know about and have a conversation with me are attractive.
I'm not as intellectual as I'd like to be, but that's not something you gain, really.
The last album I listened to was L.A. Woman by The Doors.
I haven't posted "Those That Which Are Talented" in so fucking long, but you knew that...I will post soon. Believe me. Don't lose hope!
Cunt is my favorite word.
7. Your Zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality: Virgo and yes totally.
8. A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life: Not sure that's happened yet, but I can't wait for the day it comes. =)
9. How you hope your future will be like: Happy, I really ask for nothing else but happiness.
10. Discuss your first love and first kiss: Cannot, because I haven't gotten either.
11. Put your iPod on shuffle and list 10 songs that pop up: I do not have an iPod but I'll go through my history on YouTube and list the last 10 songs I heard yesterday, not today.
"Midlife Crisis" - Faith No More
"Santeria" - Sublime
"Rabitteen" - Jack Off Jill
"Black Velvet" - Alannah Myles
"Stupid Girl" - Garbage
"Like You, Like An Arsonist" - Paris, Texas
"Strangerman" - Ringside
"I'm Afraid" - Oingo Boingo
"Play the Game" - Queen
"Our Lies" - Rasputina
12. Bullet your whole day:
10:00-11:00 wake up, stay in room while on computer
11:00-11:30 get out of room and eat
11:30-12:15 shower and change
12:15-*rest of the day* do homework, listen to music, chill, check social media OR do whatever my family has to do, because I'm forced to go with them grocery shopping or to my cousin's house or whatever it is they plan on wasting my time with.
13. Somewhere you'd like to move or visit: I'd love to travel the whole world, but not move to any of these places. Only place I'd move to is Connecticut, only because that's where Yale is and if I want to go there for four years well then of course I'd have to get used to living there, right?!
14. Your earliest memory: I guess of me eating pinto beans and throwing up because I didn't like them (I was like two).
15. Your favorite Tumblrs: Sorry changing that to my favorite Twitters:
16. Your views on mainstream music: It's great. I like whatever I like. I like weird stuff and for that my friend's don't like that I listen to Taylor Swift, Justin Bieber, and Austin Mahone (literally the only mainstream music I listen to in the pop category), but people have to think, isn't all music on the radio mainstream. Even if it's on the non-mainstream radio, it's still mainstream enough to be played on the radio. So just look at it this way, music is great who cares if it's mainstream or not, just enjoy it. But please, please, please, don't not listen to something because you've never heard of the artist. That is extremely ignorant.
17. Your Highs and Lows of this past year: Eh, this year's been great so far. I mean I try not to let things bother me anymore, because it's worthless to waste time on being sad or mad on things anymore. Just be happy. ^_^
18. My beliefs: This isn't specific enough. I could rant and rant and rant. You know what I believe in, I believe that everyone should just live life they way they want. They shouldn't be restricted to the social standards of this world, they should be free to do as they please.
19. Disrespecting your parents: Big no no. At least to my parents, I don't know about yours, but mine are great.
20. How important you think education is: EXTREMELY. It's like basically you either have it or you don't. Not having it is a total detriment, at least in my eyes. I find school to be the most important thing in life, because without it, you wouldn't be able to get through life with a lot of things. Jobs, conversations, college, people (yes, people look at you differently when you're smart or stupid), opportunities. It can all be affected.
21. One of your favorite shows: Girl Code
22. How have you changed in the past 2 years?: My views on many subjects, my maturity level, and my taste in music.
23. Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive: lol I have way more than just 5 guys I think are super attractive, but these were the first five I thought of this is in the order I found them, not necessarily the order I find them attractive.
Jimmy Urine - Famous for being in the band Mindless Self Indulgence
Tyson Ritter - Famous for being in the band The All-American Rejects
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Adrien Brody - Famous for being an actor (I think it was for being in the movie "The Pianist")
Drake Bell - Famous for being in the show "Drake & Josh" he's also just a famous actor and musician
Michael Cera - Famous for being an actor (I'm actually not sure which movie made him famous, I just remember first seeing him on the movie cover for "Juno," but I never saw the movie.)
24. Your favorite movie and what it's about: My favorite movie so far is "Metropolis" a 1927 German silent film about how society is in the near future and how we are doomed. There's a lot of undertones, it's really hard to describe all of it. It's a movie that you're going to have to watch a couple of times (lol, I've only watched it once, it moved me though).
25. Someone who fascinates you and why: I guess Marilyn Monroe. She's really beautiful and I think because she California I feel more connected to her. I also think she's really iconic and would love to learn more about her life and death. I love her singing voice, too and I've seen one movie with her in it. Pretty good (but then again I'm biased towards older films).
26. What kind of person attracts you: Well, if we're talking friend material, I'd say just about anyone who can have a great intellectual conversation with me and isn't close-minded and also has a good taste in music will do it for me. If we're talking boyfriend material, then I'd say all of the above for the friend material, but I also want a funny guy, smart guy (because remember smarts and intellect are NOT the same), a creative guy, a nice-ish guy (I say nice-ish, because some guys can be such dinguses or douches, but not necessarily towards everyone). They have to be somewhat attractive, too, I'm not going to say "looks don't matter." They don't, but to a certain extant. There's way more to it, but I'm not really in touch with that part of myself yet. I simply want someone to be my friend, I don't really care to much about the kissing part, the only thing we're using our lips for at least for the beginning is talking about topics of interest (lol).
27. A Problem That You Have Had: Still an on-going problem is my social anxiety. I really do wonder what's going to happen to me in the future.
28. Something that you miss: My friends who went to the other high school u_u...also cool kids shows, they all sort of suck now.
29. Goals for the next 30 days: Finish ALL of my summer homework
30. Your highs and lows of this month: Eh, would rather not talk about that.
