Some Little Facts About Me

I found this picture online...

And I thought it would be cool if I used it for my blog. I want the regular, constant readers to get a little piece of me and for other readers who just happen to see this and to future readers who read this when I am making a name for myself in the world. Thanks for reading, here's a little piece of me. Hope you enjoy. I'll reiterate the list again down there, I don't think it would be cool for you to keep scrolling up and down.

1. Name(Assumed Name): Lovely Fortune
2. Height: 5'4" (64 inches or if you're not from America 162.5cm)
3. Weight: 114lbs (or 51.7 kg)
4. Age: 14 as of this post *laughs*
5. Birthday: All you need to know is that August is my birthmonth

6. Girl BFF: My best friend is a wonderful, funny girl who shares similar and dissimilar interests (awesome though) with me.

7.Boy BFF: Well I thought he was a really great friend, but I don't think so anymore. He's conceited and acts like he's cooler than us and that he's soooo popular. *no pic*

8. Crush: Haha, well I've made so many blog posts about him how could my regular readers not know who he is. Well, I call him Momo now (I've rotated a lot of nicknames around him, so I know Momo is not going to stick especially after seeing the definition on urban dictionary, not that others weren't good, but most were negative. ;-;) Here are two of the good definitions I found, haha.

Here is a picture of him, well, avatar I made.

9. Ever Fell In Love: Well I think it's my "crush". I technically don't classify my crush as my crush, because the term crush is not appealing to me and does not make sense to why I like him. It is more of an infatuation, I am quite sad to say but it is the truth. He is so interesting, but I don't know if I've fallen in love with him. Maybe, maybe not? It's just a matter of how you perceive the amount of time it takes to fall in love.

10.Favorite Food: Ramen!!! 

11. Last text: Something you don't have

12. Longest Relationship: I've never been in a relationship.

13. Battery Percentage: 69%

14. Eye Color: Brown but a lot of people tell me it looks black

15. Addiction: Music

16. Favorite Song: I don't have one. If you have a favorite song, you must have your life together! I don't even have a favorite band!!!

17. Favorite Animal: The narwhal!!!~ 

18. Favorite Song (so they reiterated so I decided why not change it to favorite color) Favorite Color: Black

19. Sing in the shower: ALL THE TIME!!!

20. One wish: To become a great singer.

21. Best Time in your Life I think that will come later on but as for right now, the best time in my life was the day I did my first Talent Show, I finally realized I wanted to be a singer.

22. Country You Live In: America

23. Pets: None

24. Plan on Getting Married: Maybe, it seems like things go downhill after being married. I'd like to have a reception and the dress and ring, but who cares about standing at the alter. Just as long as we know we'll be faithful to each other I'm fine.

25. Favorite Subject: I love school, but I guess I'd choose math!

26. First Kiss: No first kiss, probably won't get one either.

27. Insecure: Yeah, but not as much as I used to be.

28. Ever Self Harmed: No and I would never. To everyone who has, please, be strong. You can overcome your problems and I pray for you.

29. Who you love: Well, this is not very specific, but love is such a strong word, I tell everyone I love them so does that mean I love everyone. Well, no, I don't enjoy a lot of people either and my love to people doesn't mean love it means hey, you're cool, we're friends, right?. I love you doesn't mean affection it means we're friends...in my opinion.

30. Miss anyone: My friends who went to a different high school.

31. Hair Color: Black

32. Relationship Status: Single

33. Last Song You Heard: "Rat Race" by Brody Dalle

34. Biggest Fear: Dying

35. Believe in ghosts: No

36. Something you Hate: Posers, Conformists, Hypocrites, I guess people who aren't real???

37. Favorite TV Show: South Park

38. Favorite Movie: Metropolis

39. Favorite Book: "Catcher in the Rye" by J.D. Salinger and no, I am not just some brooding teen that agrees with everything Holden Caulfield says and that's why it's my favorite book. No, I actually read it because South Park was like, this book is about a whiny teen, it is, but it shares all the viewpoints I have. People are fake. It's a horrible thing, but even the last sentence in the book, very moving actually.

40. Favorite Food (they reiterated another one, well let's change this to favorite snack) Favorite Snack: Red Vines

41. Jealous Of: can't say, can't say *laughs*
42. Star Sign: Virgo
43. Middle Name: Lovely Fortune does not assume a middle name, I have a middle name that starts with a B.

44. Worst Habit: Telling myself I will do homework and then not doing it.

45. Number of Siblings: 1 half brother
46. Name of Siblings: Name starts with E

47. Sports you Play: Tennis, (I used to and would like to again) and Running

48. Best Friend Ever: Mentioned above, the girl in #6

49. Embarrassing Moment: I think I've had a bunch of these. My most recent one is when my Biology teacher told me "hello" and I said "Thank you." It was so awkward, what was I thanking her for? Acknowledging me?!

50. Future Career Choice: Singer!!!

I would love to do this again, it was really fun! Once again you can send me questions to my personal e-mail here 

"Flying is Hard" by M-Steiner

Another Wonderful Poem...

I was on the dollar's website today and once again I've found another wonderful poem. I think it is something that we should all think about when we look at life. Thanks again to M-Steiner ^o^

Walking down a clear path
I saw a bird in pain
It was alone
I crouched down beside it
and I sensed it felt disdain 

Why can't you fly
Birds are known for that
It's how most of them get by
In my mind I could hear the bird say
Today I looked at the world
and asked why am I here
I laughed at that thought
You're a silly bird I said
It's better to be alive than dead
I heard the bird ask me "why"

That impossible question lingered with me
The bird asked if we were meant to be
Existing isn't living 
Living is existing 
That question couldn't be answered with complete totality
about if our lives should be a reality
Happiness drives me
What about those without
What's their need to be

A coin called life has two sides
the good and the bad
It's flipped more than once
so it's not dictated by the sad

I went back the bird
on my mind had been only one word
Hope
I fixed the bird up
its wing had been straightened
and feathers unruffled
As the bird began to fly
There was a sound
Very muffled
I thought I heard a word
That the bird said 
"Maybe"

Cousins From Mexico

So Some Cousins From Mexico Came For Two Weeks...

I did not really like them at first and I really didn't want to bother with them for two whole weeks. That was basically my whole winter break. It wasn't great either, because a lot of problems arose from us spending Christmas and New Year's with them. Trust me, I didn't want to either. I was getting so overwhelmed in there. I wanted to go soooo badly.

Well, they're gone now, do I miss them? No. They were great on the last day. Yup, the last day of all days they decide to talk to me. That's when it sucks, now you want to be with them, but no, I did not really care. I was indifferent to the situation. I actually wished for school backs so I wouldn't have to be so overwhelmed by staying over there and making idle conversation or having to hear idle conversation.

Well, they're gone now, so whatevs.

2015!!!

So It's A New Year...

So let's make sure it's a great year. Let's complete all our resolutions and let's accomplish and experience many things.

My Resolutions:

1. Get better grades next semester (specifically all A's)

2. Be friends with my crush (because technically I just want to be his friend, it was never about love in the first place)

3. Complete my story "Those That Which Are Talented"

4. Make at least one new friend (excluding who I want to become friends with in #2)

5. Learn to play my guitar better (did I mention I have a guitar, well I have a guitar, now you know I have a guitar, haha)

6. Get my band kickstarted

7. Get another member for my band

8. Perform somewhere

9. Become the front woman of the school band.

10. Be happy!!!

Yeah #10 is the most unrealistic resolution in the world, but I hope one day it can become the truth.

I hope everyone has a great 2015 and they can accomplish as many resolutions as possible and do lots of awesome things. I have high hopes that 2015 is going to be a good year for me. Maybe it'll be a good year for you, too!!!

Guitar Lessons

So I Have A Guitar Now...

And I would love it if anybody could just add a comment below and give me some advice since I've never picked one up before until today and I'm pretty sure I'm not playing it right. Websites (must be free lessons), youtube videos, and names of books would be helpful. Thanks a lot guys!!! Stay lovely!~

There he (yes, I'm calling it a he, cuz I bet dudes call it a she) is. Beautiful, right? It's a Yamaha!!!

Off to the world of practicing!!!

Feelings 12.28.14

Ever Feel Like Family Has Got You Down...

I love my family very much, but the fact that we are so dysfunctional (thank goodness not in a horrible neglectful way, just in a argumentative way) always get's me thinking what it would be like to not have them. So I ask myself the question, "Why can we never make up? Forgive and forget? Make up and promise to come to a compromise? Why do we not do that?" Here's a little something I wrote down last night at midnight.

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I have always wondered how it feels to have no family at all. Not an orphan, not disowned, not divorced, not left behind, not anything at all where you once belonged with someone. No. How is it like to start off from scratch? Born by parents, but never growing up with anyone to take care of you. I honestly believe it would be hard, but so much more better! Worthwhile, even!

All the bad things that happen when you have a family can alter your well-being drastically. Imagine a world without having to worry about anyone, just yourself. No more wondering if your sister will tell your secrets to mom or dad--in fact, you'll have no secrets at all! It's only you, no one else! Will your brother ever give you back that action figure? Who knows? It could be lost by now, maybe broken, right? Without them you own everything. There's no sharing either and you never have to worry if mom and dad will stop fighting. You never have to worry if family members will continue fighting without making up. You'll never have to worry about being disowned or having to pretend.

There is so much pretending that I couldn't even start. You have to pretend to like people! You have to pretend to be someone else! You have to pretend like you care! Maybe if family accepted more easily it could work, but in this world every family is dysfunctional.

No one gets along, everyone talks behind each others backs, no one tried to understand, they make you feel horrible and expect you to take it as advice. Why? I don't get it!

Without a family, you'd only have to understand yourself, but unfortunately this is impossible and definitely not plausible! Everyone starts off as a baby who cannot care for themselves, so if left unattended they will die an that is why you can't not have a family.

In my own experience I would say, being told bad (at least to me and an example I will give you is that I am always being told that I make no sense, that I'm weird, that I'm too smart for my own good) things and no one caring, well it hurts because no one ever tries to hear you out. Having to deal with hearing all the problems going on in your family sucks, too. All I ever wanted was for us to get along.

When I turn 18, I'm going to make myself better than all of this. Overcome it! I will show them that even though we all struggled, we can try again. Believe me, it will be heard,  but I am willing to do it.

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It's true, I sometimes wonder if they ever realize this.

I wish my family could be like a perfect portrait. Every picture we were in smiling together having a good time, let's go back to those moments.

But I want them all to be there for me and the one's who are there for me never hear me out. They only hear me out when it's something they agree with, but when it isn't you're sure to hear them get mad at me.

Sometimes I love my friends more than my family, is that bad?

Yeah, I don't think our family will ever get back together and make up. Why would they do that? We used to be so happy, all of us together, but now it's like we don't even care anymore.

Why...can't we just...get along?

In Regards To The Story 12.23.14

In Case You Were Wondering What The Side Girl Characters Look Like...

This is Malerei Mont, she dresses like an artist should. Mostly, loose shirts and jeans or long skirts, because (and I didn't add it in the story, I don't even know if it will be added into the story, but she is self conscious of her legs.)

This is Piper Hall. Sweetest bitch on campus! She's wearing heels, but you can't tell. Yeah, she tries to be really cute and most people can't see past that. All the girls fear her, so they pretend they like her (or they genuinely like her, the mean ones that is). All the girls are fake to her and she's aware, but she's okay with it. Pink is her favorite color!!!~

This is Teagan Thompson. Despite her being cooped up in her room writing stories all the time (oh my gosh that sounds like me!) she is quite stylish. She's probably the coolest side girl character in the story I think! If I can't do one of these for the boy characters, just imagine Teagan with short hair and you'll get Seymour (lol).