I'm Accepting That I Probably Won't Ever Get Over My Crush...
But I literally looked up in the search bar "I have a crush on a muslim boy" because I just want to understand where he is coming from better. I talk to him and he never looks me in the eye, always at the ground. He smiles, but...I mean it's so weird. I feel like he wants to say something in reply to me but he doesn't and so it confuses me. He's more complicated than a girl, honestly O_O. Another thing, I was reading through an answer online saying never touch them and well it explained something. The day I told him that I was "over him" I stuck out my hand, but I wasn't going to touch him I just make a lot of hand gestures when I talk to people and at that moment I did that on impulse (I played the scene in my mind beforehand) and he backed away. It was so weird, but then after reading that I was like "NO WONDER HE DID THAT!" and now I feel like he probably will never like me and also it just seems like we're from two different worlds. I wouldn't convert for him, heck no, and I wouldn't expect him to convert for me, but...I really do like him and I would like to think that somewhere in his heart he likes me back. I mean I see him talking to other girls easily and I don't know if they touch his shoulder or hand or head or by accident, but he seems okay with them which just makes me question myself even more. I had to write this down because I'm just really confused right now and I don't want to disrespect his culture/religion in any way. Well, it was good to get that off my chest...
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