This is a note I wrote to the kid I like (more or less) about how I felt about everything.
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Hi,
I could probably write down a million words to you right now about how I feel, but that would be too many and take up too much time. Instead, I'm going to write down everything I'm thinking of at this very moment at exactly 11:44 p.m.
I can't quite articulate the words into real life and that's why I ask you random questions that don't make any sense. i'm really sorry if it bothers you, but if it bothered you so much then I would have liked it better than you not telling me anything. It's worse not knowing what you think about the situation, than it is being slapped in the face with the truth. It might hurt for a while, but at least every time I'd have seen you I would have known not to say anything, because...Silence. Is. Bliss.
I know that I told you that I was "officially over you" but honestly you're so intriguing (and I don't even understand how, which makes it all the better) that I can't be "over you". I'm still not even sure if it is worth it to think you're intriguing when in fact you might not be. You might be NORMAL or SIMPLE or even *gasp* LIKE EVERYONE ELSE! If that were the case, I'd slowly get over you finally rationalizing that the idea of you was kind of dumb.
Right now you still interest me though.
(^_^ While I've been writing this I've been thinking, wouldn't it be cool if we communicated like this?! ^_^)
To be honest, the only thing I know about you is your name, age, and everything I can see on the outside...That's absolutely the worst to me. I'm weird like that. What I'd really love to know is little facts about you that have no importance at all. Those are the things that really make up a person, not the other stupid obvious things.
My friend and I were joking about you the other day (we actually do it a lot >_<) and she said, "I bet one day he's going to look back at these moments and say that his biggest mistake was walking through that corridor junior year!" I hope not, but it's probably true. I still can't even believe I even asked you what your name was. I'm actually really shy, so the fact I went up to you shocks me. I'm not really like that with people. I don't really like talking to them, because they don't understand and for some reason I saw you and thought, "He understands." I'm not sure what you understand, but you understand something.
I don't really know why I wrote this when you might just throw this away or you might make fun of me while reading this. I don't even get why I'm writing this anymore. I've never done this before.
Truthfully, everything before this paragraph didn't need to be in here, but I put it in anyways, because why not!~
...So really I just want to be your friend...We could be friends if you want...It would be cool.
Haha, I never introduced myself, but why bother now.
Thanks for reading you read this and sorry about my bad handwriting. Have a nice winter break!~ =D
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